I relate to this so, so much. I look at life exactly how she does. We just need to get through the horribleness of this world to get to the next stage.

The weirdest and most unsettling thought to me about life is the fact that everything and even worse, everyone in your life is temporary. It is so strange and profound to me that everything and everyone you have ever known will one day be gone. It is a weird thought that I think most people don't really think about but it's the strange, sad truth.

Your house is not always going to be there. You're not always going to be living in it. One day you could lose all your money including your house or when you die other people are going to be living there or it could be transformed into a new hotel or a fire might happen...

but the most devastating thought is not the fact that you won't always own everything you do now, the most devastating fact is not even that you won't always be here and that your life is temporary - the most devastating fact is that the people around you aren't here forever either.

Your parents will eventually die, your best friend probably won't stay your best friend forever and the relationship you're in now - well as good and amazing as it is, it just might not work out.


Life is scary and a little hard to comprehend sometimes.

Don't take anything for granted is all we can do I suppose.

Mental health

So many people in the world today are still extremely ignorant regarding mental health. They have no idea how hard it is for people with mental disorders or diseases. Why are people with depression not allowed to take a day off work? If you have the flu you're allowed but why not depression? Depression is as much as a disease as any physical disease. Mental diseases can be worse than physical diseases. Mental diseases can kill you just like physical diseases can. But the difference between them is - physical diseases you have support from everyone around you, people will empathize with you and help you out. They know you're suffering.

But what about mental diseases? Some people go as far as mocking mental diseases instead of trying to empathize with these people. Some go as far to say that they're not real, that it's their own fault. For example anorexia - some say the person is stupid and that all they care about is looks and being skinny... if they weren't so self absorbed they wouldn't have it. But it couldn't be more from the truth. You can not turn anorexia on and off. You can't just decide "I want to be skinny so I'll turn anorexic". NO. That is not how it works. IT IS A DISEASE. People do not want to be anorexic or ask for such a horrible disease. People do not enjoy the fact that their own brain has turned against them and has taken over their own body. They do not enjoy the fact that the first thing on their mind when they wake up is how they're going to get out of eating breakfast. They do not enjoy waking up in hospital from passing out. They do not enjoy panic attacks when the thought of even consuming food enters their mind. They do not enjoy loosing their hair and being out of breath from just walking up the stairs. They do not enjoy having to be secretive towards their family. They do not enjoy having their friends and family constantly worried about them and looking over them. They do not enjoy finding out they will never be able to have children. They do not enjoy loosing all their energy and the simplest of tasks being the hardest thing. They do not enjoy not knowing whether today will be the last time they see their family. Does anorexia really sound like something someone would want to go through?

Mental disorders create war in your own mind.

 Another example is addiction. Casper lee explains exactly what addiction is.

With addictions and most mental diseases it's not just the person with the disease suffering. It's everyone around them who is suffering with them. They call addiction a family disease. Not because addiction runs in families but because it ruins families. You cannot stop an addict from drinking or taking drugs or stopping them from doing whatever they're addicted too the only person that can stop them is themselves but sometimes the disease is so strong that it takes over them and they just can't stop and that can be the hardest thing for families to go through because there's nothing anyone can do and you have to sit back and watch them destroy them self and their life. That's why I think mental diseases are so much worse than physical diseases. Not only are people with mental diseases judged and not given enough support or understanding but in most cases you can try and try to help them but at the end of the day it's up to the sufferer to help themselves and sometimes they cannot do that. Yes there's councilors, psychologists and psychiatrists out there but there's only so much they can do. It is completely up to the person to fix themselves and the hardest thing is knowing you are the only person who can help yourself but no being able to do so.

Imagine feeling so powerless?

Fix you

“She came home from the hospital after her father passed covered in tears. I started crying and kept asking her, ‘What can I do for you? Tell me how I can help’ And she looked up at me and said ‘Just hold me cause you’re the only thing that can fix me right now.’”
- Chris Martin on the inspiration for “Fix You”

Thing I believe are important (in no particular order)

1. Family
2. Friends
3. Helping others
4. Humour
5. Being yourself
6. Happiness
7. Music
8. Believing in something
10. Being as kind as you can be to others
11. Communication
12. Having goals to work towards
13. Dreams
14. Expressing yourself
15. Honesty
16. Positivity
17. Realism
18. A place to call home
19. Listening to others
20. Understanding others
21. The ability to put yourself in someone elses shoes
22. Intelligence
23. Education
24. The ability to laugh at yourself
25. Not comparing your life to other people's
26. Sleep
27. Being able to relax
28. BEING A MOTHAFUCKING G.

humans are so cute, when we say goodbye we put our arms around each other and to show we love someone we bring them flowers. we say hello by holding each other’s hand and sometimes tiny little dewdrops form in our eyes. For pleasure we listen to arrangements of sounds, press our lips together, smoke dried leaves, get drunk off of old fruit. We’re all just little animals, falling in love and having breakfast beneath billions of stars...
  

how to have a better day

1. make lists
2. eat
3. laugh
4.think
5. don't think too much
6. drink tea
7. dance freely to your favorite album
8. make new friends
9. accomplish something
10. watch a movie
11. draw even if you don't feel like it
12. make plans with old friends
13. take a nap
14. call your best friend

Spoken word poetry

I have recently really gotten into poetry. Here is a playlist of my favourite spoken word poems I have come across in the past week.





http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u9Wf8y_5Yn4&list=PLmNp2c8pT7rmZWbB1Rr8booPBvg5swz_f&index=1

Masks

life's rules

- you are never as awkward as you think you are
- you are never as annoying as you think you are
- you are never as boring as you think you are
- your compliments are never as creepy as you think they are
- you are way more wanted than you give yourself credit for
- chin up, mothafucka